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haiz~ sometimes i ll thk tat is it rite for my decision? is it good to be vf him? sometimes i m so confusing... actually he is not bad... i can feel his love to me... but can he be more gentleman? is it tat i hv been spoilt by my ex?? my ex reli treat me very good... he listen to all my words... wat i ask him to do sure he wont say no... he even very caring to me... he ll do aything for me... wih him, there is nohing for me o worry... sometimes he even gv me surprise... he ll do somehing tat i thk very few man ll do it.... i reli hope tat he can b more gentleman... i din ask for much... jux do something tat a guy shld do... some more, can he dun b so blur? it is very important tat a guy shld b clear minded... so tat oni he can protect me... y he is so different fr his other frens??? y they r so gentleman yet he like tis?? i know i shld accept it... but i cant... can he change? i got told him but he seems like not concern abt it... reli hope tat someone can tell him how 2 b a good bf... And he can b more clear minded.... at least when i m angry he can sense it... m i chosen a wrong guy??? So confusing.... but he is reli good to me in other aspect.... i jux hope tat he can change a bit... jux a bit.... i dun expect more..... WHO CAN HELP ME???????????

08~09/08/09---- So HAPPY!!!!

Today i m so happy... I went out vf my frens to eat steamboat and celebrating one of his bday... I tot tat i cant live tis kind of life in Srw... But i did it... So happy.... I m very excited along the way v go out... Nice feeling.... I reli very like tis group of frens... They r so good to me... My 'two sons' r so good o me too... Whenever i need help sure they ll help me... such a nice person.... today got happen some scary things.... i m so worry abt it... luckily settle ady... nth serious happen... after tis incident den oni i know how important is my frens to me... i never met tis kind of frens in my whole life... they reli very important to me... but there is 1 thing tat is not perfect today... 'someone' suddenly following us go out... starting i dun hv any comment abt tis fellow... but after i know wat he did to my frens den i reli very dislike him... how come got tis kind of ppl in the world? i cant believe it!! he is so 'woody'... cant sense anything... he is hurting my fren deeply... if can i reli dun wish to talk vf him... so disgusting.... i reli hope tat my fren ll forget him quickly.... i m sure tat she ll find some1 better 1000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000times than tis fellow... SURE!!!!