y?y?y? tis is bcox i worry about money... y in tis world money is so important?? r we reli cant live without money?? who can answer tis ques for me?? my sadness hv2 tell fr last sem... i went so hard and finally i get 2 change my major... at first i reli feel vy happy... bcox finally i can study something related 2 science... but, jux at the moment tat i jux came bk fr langkawi... a bad news came... my mum call me and told me tat ptptn ask me 2 send some document as an inform to them tat i change my major... SHIT!!! i never tot of tat... so... after i reach home i quickly look thru the letter fr ptptn... oh my god!!! i dun understand wat they wan.... b4 tis i received a call fr UNIMAS... they ask me 2 go bk and take surat pengesahan... oh my god!! impossible u ask me spend ard RM200 juz 2 bk UNIMAS and get the letter... but luckily, my fren help me 2 take it... next, another furious thg... they din gv me another letter tat i wan... so.. i call 2 here n there jux 2 ask abt the letter... and finally some1 told me tat UNIMAS ady send the letter 2 ptptn...SETTLE.... so, finally i settle all the prob and send all the documents 2 ptptn... (wonder they received onot)..
after a few weeks... i bk 2 UNIMAS.... b4 tis ptptn got told me tat they will bank in the money 2 me late a bit... but they din say how long will it take... so, i prepared 2 wait... who knows, after 1 month they still haven bank in the money 2 me... SHIT!!!!. how do i live??? luckily, i still left some money fr last sem... erm.. i 4got start fr when.. i plan 2 apply JPA... starting i was vy mind abt the bond.. bcox i hate 2 being "tied" by government... but lastly... i persuade myself.. jux a few years... bear vf it for my parents...
wondering y i suddenly wan2 apply JPA?? bcox i come fr a poor family... and bcox of my stubborn, i choose 2 stay outside which makes me spend more... honestly, i feel a bit regret tat i decided to stay outside... it reli spend more... after i counted the loan fr ptptn, it seems like not enuf for me... and i dun wan take money fr my parents.. tats y i choose 2 apply JPA... another reason is my mum told me tat my dad going 2 resign... haiz....
but, bcox of my stubborn again... i miss the period 2 apply JPA... God... pls help me... ptptn din gv me money and i cant get JPA too... Wat am i going 2 do??? I reli dun wan 2 bcum a burden 2 my parents.... they r living in a hardship... and my bro is still studying too... house loan, car loan. utility bill.. all are money... although they told me when i m not enuf money juz ask fr them... but i know tis is going 2 be a burden 2 them... my air ticket, broadband, telephone bill... its enuf for them 2 suffer... i dun wan my parents suffer.... but who can help me??
will there be any money fall fr heaven??? i reli hope so....
i dun dare 2 call bk home... bcox whenever i heard the sounds of my parents sure i will cry... i dun wan2 cry in front of them... i dun wan they worry abt me.... help... wat can i do??? y i m so stubborn?? my selfish and stubborn makes my parents suffering.... SORRY, mum and dad.... i m so unfillial....
